Friday, November 21, 2008

I just wasn't ready for this...

First I want to apologize for being "away" for a while and not giving you guys a head's up. I just wasn't prepared for what life was going to dish out. Last Saturday my heart shattered into a million pieces as my beloved dad passed away. He suffered so much, in constant pain from Parkinson's, osteoporosis, arthritis and whatnot. As I type this, I still can't believe I'm never going to see him again. It all went by so fast, I just can't seem to wrap my mind around it. I try to keep busy, not think about it. But I won't lie to you, it's not easy.


He was a wonderful dad and a loving grandfather and I'm sure he wouldn't want us to be so sad. But I am sad and I will miss him as I have never missed anyone before. I'll get back to blogging in a little while, but for now, I hope you'll understand, my heart's just not into it.
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51 comments:

Manggy said...

Oh Lynne, that is just heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't worry about us one bit and take all the time you need... You and your family are in my thoughts. By the way, that is a lovely picture of your dad...

Isabelle said...

toutes mes sympathies Lyb :)Je suis réellement désolée pour toi et tes proches.
prends le temps qu'il faut pour revenir, on t'attendra !
bien à toi :)

Adalie Plain said...

Praying that God's comfort will be very real to you right now.

CB said...

LYB, my thoughts and sympathies for you and your family. He was obviously a very beloved member of your family by the way you write about him. Je m'excuse ainsi de votre perte. Please take all the time you need to heal. {{HUGS}}
/Clara

Gretchen Noelle said...

I am so sorry to hear this. Understandably you are affected, hurting. Take your time. I imagine with the holidays coming up, it is especially difficult. You and your family are in my prayers.

Sarah said...

So sorry to hear about your dad. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and we will all be here when you are ready to come back.

Amy said...

Lynne, I am so very sorry to hear about your dad...you and your family will be in my thoughts. Take good care.

Kristen said...

Oh dear - I am so sorry for your loss. It is always hard to lose a loved one, but around the holidays especially. Take the time you need to grieve and I hope that you can find some peace in the memories you had with him. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

Pip said...

i am so sorry for your loss. Sounds like you were blessed to have such a great person for your father.
Take care of yourself.

Megan said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.......

andrew said...

I am so, so sorry. We will be here when you get back. Take good care of yourself and your family.

Jessica said...

Oh Lynne, I am so, so sorry... My heart breaks for you. I don't know if I've ever commented here before, but I read your site regularly. Please allow friends and family to comfort you in this time, and I will be praying for you.

Lalycairn said...

OH, I am so sorry for your loss. My own Dad is in his 80's and I dread the day. Please know you and your family are in my prayers.

JohannaB said...

Lynne, I am so sorry for your loss. The holidays will be a hard time for you. Take the time you need to heal. We'll be here for you when you are ready to take the reins again.

bee said...

lynne, please accept my heartfelt condolences at your deep loss. your dad looks warm and wonderful in that picture.

Carver said...

Your description of your dad, of your pain, and the photo you posted all moved me to write a comment... yet I don't know what to say. He looks like he was a wonderful person, and was lucky to have a loving daughter like you.

ostwestwind said...

Oh dear, I am so sorry for you. You are never ready for this, but I am sure your dad won peace ( I hope that's the right expression ...)

Heather said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts. I know how hard it is to lose someone, especially from Parkinsons.

Aimée said...

First off, our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Lynne. This must be such a difficult time for you and of course you need some time away. Take all the time you need. We miss you, but we understand.

Lots of Love and hugs.
Aimee and family

Liz said...

Oh, I am so sorry to hear this. I hope that you're able to feel some peace or comfort during this time.

Julie said...

Je suis triste pour toi, tes enfants et pour toute ta famille.
Prends ton temps et bon courage pour passer à travers cet épreuve.
Julie

nicisme said...

I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I will keep you all in my thoughts.

Andrew's Mom said...

I'm a lurker on your blog - I'm so sorry. My mom passed away last night (11/21) and while we were constantly fighting and avoiding - I'm distraught. Peace and love to you.

Grace said...

my condolences, lyb--you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Erika said...

So sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers go to you and your family.

Ginny said...

I am so sorry! You and your family are in my thoughts!

Sandy said...

I'm so sorry for you loss ... I've been there.

rhid said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, I wish you strength and peace.

ChichaJo said...

My deepest sympathies to you and your family...so sorry to hear about your loss. Sending a warm hug your way...please take as much time as you need...

Sandie said...

I am so sorry and completely understand the loss you are feeling. It's devastating to lose a parent, and the holidays only compound the feelings of grief. While I may not know you, my heart goes out to you nonetheless. In time, you'll be able to smile when you think of your dad, instead of welling up with tears.

Cookie baker Lynn said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family. Virtual hugs and tissues.

Piggy said...

Sorry for your loss, lynne. Take care...

Erinn said...

I am so sorry about the loss of your beloved Dad. My Dad means the world to me and I can understand how you feel. Hang in there and take care of yourself.

Jessica Eiden Smedley said...

Please accept my most heartfelt condolences.

Be well.

kimberleyblue said...

I'm very sorry.

Take care of yourself and your family.

katrina said...

Oh, I am so sorry. Here it is four years later, and I'm still talking to my Dad's picture every morning - I have a lovely smiling photo of him on the fridge. Blessings and love, and take good care.

Katrina

Carol Peterman said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you can find some comfort by embracing the wonderful memories of him that you will always have to cherish. Take care and be patient with yourself. I look forward to welcoming you back once you have taken the time you need.

Jaime said...

i am so sorry for your loss. *big hugs*

RecipeGirl said...

I'm terribly sorry for your loss. What a heartbreaking tragedy for you and your family. Sending hugs your way...

PheMom said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! That is a lovely picture of your Dad. I hope you spend all the time you need remembering all the wonderful things and give yourself time to heal (and know that it is an ongoing process). Don't worry about all of us here, we just want you to take care of yourself. HUGS!

Shari@Whisk: a food blog said...

Oh, Lynne, that's rough. Take your time. Thinking of you.

HoneyB said...

I am so sad to hear of your loss. It is never easy to lose someone we love so deeply. My thoughts are with you and I hope that at least your memories of your dad will be a comfort in the days to come.

AmyRuth said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you find comfort in the memories of your Dad with your family. You will continue to find much support, I'm sure, amongst the blogging community members.
AmyRuth

Amy said...

Oh no....I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that I am saying a prayer for you right now.

-Amy (Sing For Your Supper)

Cafe Johnsonia said...

OH! I'm so very sorry, Lynne. My prayers are with you.

Madam Chow said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad 10 years ago, and I still think of him every day. Thank you for posting that lovely picture of your dad.

Peggy said...

Oh I'm so sorry. I lost my mom this year so I know a little of what you must be going through. It's a lovely picture of your dad. I hope your wonderful memories will bring you comfort and strength. My prayers go out for you and your family.

Elle said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking to lose a parent. Take all the time you need.

Susan from Food Blogga said...

Oh, Lyb, I can only imagine how painful his loss must be to you. I hope it gives you some solace to know you have so many people who are keeping you in their thoughts right now.

Tina said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. I lost my mother right after Mother's Day, it's difficult. Keeping that beautiful photo nearby will remind you of happier times. Take care of yourself.

StickyGooeyCreamyChewy said...

LyB, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I was out of the country when you posted this sad news and I didn't see it until now.

I lost my own beloved father two Novembers ago and I can honestly say that I do know how you must be feeling.

You have my deepest sympathy and my thoughts are with you. If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.

Take care.